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5 Reasons Why I Hate This World

July 1st, 2010 by Lil J

26th of Feb was it? Last Time I posted anything.

Shit, daym, dawg. Thems thuggin’ gangstas be swaggin’ yo.
But in all seriousness, I’m personally getting sick of pretty much everything so I decided I’ll rant about it on my blog. Yeah, that’s the exact thing that popped into my head.
“I’ll rant about it on my blog, that’ll show em.”
So you better get ready for some extreme ranting.
So here’s the list.

5: “Sheepery”

Definition: An act of faggotry in which a human being will do as what another human will do as an attempt to become somewhat “hip” or “trendy” but will only be a complete fag in the eyes of sane people for not even trying to be an individual. Monkey see, monkey do anyone?

Why it fucks me off: People think that the “group system” is non-existent, but if you really look around you will see that it is in fact very real. Take a walk down the street and you will see fag teens following other fag teens, white trash, wannabe gangsters, emo/goth kids, skanks, whatever. They’ll all be there, all joined in little groups following one another in an attempt to be individual. But anyone who actually tries to be an individual will be discarded because they’re simply different. Sheepery also applies to the causes for almost everything below.

Also, being emo does NOT make you an individual. It just makes you another emo.

4: Trends

Definition: An act of sheepery where someone may think they will instantly become cool in the eyes of many by picking one of the many available trends out there created by the common society. Stereotypes thrive on trends.

Why it fucks me off: Not only do trends create the group systems, causing many people to become outcasts, but they commonly give music an image which it doesn’t deserve. It slanders metal, making it seem as though it’s only angry music for pubescent kids who have nothing better to do then rant on blogs emo kids. Which comes to remind me how trends have constantly given me the label “emo” and most of the music I listen to as “emo” when they don’t even understand what the term means. Another thing that disgusts me is the fact that rap is given the image “gangsta”, but I suppose walking like you’re a cripple with you’re pants around your knees is what the kids are into these days.

3: The existence of “Twilight”

Definition: A story that has gained such a cult following that it’s become somewhat sickening and repulsive.

Why it fucks me off: Considering the fact I would like to be an author myself someday, I don’t want to get into the habit of slandering other author’s work. Yet the more I think about it, it’s more the actual fans that repulse me then the stories itself. Sure sparkling Vampires and the idea that it’s normal for a teenage girl to fall in love with a 100 year old undead guy or a Half-man Half-wolf dood is seriously gross, but the fans that are so quick to defend it are irritable yet hilarious to troll. Commonly a girl of the age sixteen or under, an age group where a large amount of fail will take place. Besides that, the amount of shallowness that takes place in the eyes of Twi-hards is horrible. For example, the actor Taylor Launt (if that’s his name, don’t care if I got it wrong.) got ZERO recognition in Twilight, where he had longer hair and kept his shirt on. But with “New Moon” came screaming fan girls as he took off his top and got buff. Now he gets more media attention and roles for movies. Fucking disgusting how much sex appeal takes place in movies and music.

2: Religion

Definition: A series of beliefs which would be normal for people to believe in a couple of hundreds of years ago, but in modern times is just getting ridiculous.

Why it fucks me off: Christianity isn’t the only religion out there, and certainly wasn’t the first, but why is it the majority belief? Sometime after Christianity, people in the medieval ages believed in dragons, trolls and ogres. People also believed that the universe revolved around the earth. Sometime after that, everyone believed that there were witches, vampires and werewolves running around, so they went out hunting for them. And during all this, everyone believed that the earth was flat. The above has been proven utter bullshit, yet people believe in God and tonnes of other ancient shit they’ve been spoon fed. Why do they still believe? Fear. Fear of what their family would think and what the society around them would think, but of course ultimately, fear that they will go to hell. But wouldn’t you rather know the truth them try and believe something that doesn’t make sense to you? That is why I became an Atheist.

Doesn’t it take an ounce of logic to think that up? Even a tard like me knows that.

1: The Media

Definition: A group of faggots with control issues, shows everyone what to believe in, what music to listen to, and what to hate. Almost a form of mind control.

Why it fucks me off: The Media has so much control over the world, and not too many people realize this. With the control of the media, people are told how think and what is acceptable in the common society. Of course anyone who doesn’t think within this box of faggotry is considered an outcast, but honestly I’d rather think for myself then be considered normal. Through the music and ideas that are presented through the media, trends and labels are created, and so comes the cycle of sheepery. Not many people may realize it, but the media sends out music, which creates trends, which creates ideas for whats acceptable in a society and ways to think. The media can also cover up just about anything and call people crazy just for arguing against it. I’m looking at you, 911. There are possibly not enough words to describe how much I hate the media. I may have to create some of my own, such as “shabunga.” I will inform you when I’ve made anymore progress.

Why I am yet to kill myself if I’m such a raving loon and hate everything so much:

Well what the fuck would that prove? I see my existence as more of a punishment for the worlds faggotry, forcing everyone to listen to my droning moaning for being such cock suckers. That’s right, in your face world ;D

And THAT is the 5 Reasons Why I Hate This World. Some of you reading this may think this is the over the top moaning of a moody lunatic. Those of you who think that are very correct. Now I shall barbecue several cats within the confined space of which 911 took place.

WOOHOO.

“Breaking me, changing me,
into a powerless mortal creature.”

– The Breathing Process

- Life sucks and so do you.
~ Lil J.

Metalocalypse!

February 26th, 2010 by Lil J

So I haven’t been updating my blog often, quite like the absolutely disgusting human being I happen to be.

I’m 18 now. Yay.

I have a job now. Yay.

It’s at an orchard and I work 45 hours a week… boo…

I’m OBSESSED with Metalocalypse. It’s so damn awesome! In fact, if my writing career doesn’t kick off and my life turns to shit, I’m officially changing my name to “Scrambles the Death Dealer.” Inspired by Metalocalypse.

METALOCALYPSE

Been stalking Season 3 ever since it started getting leaked onto the internet and been highly anticipating for more… speaking of which, WHERE ARE THE NEW EPISODES DAMN IT. But I’m more pumped for the third album, seriously, with Blood Money and Organic Destruction already on the cartoon… well, I can only imagine how epic the album versions will be.

That’s about all from me.
Peace nigz.

“For you, I broke in tears.
For you, I loved for years.”

– Doom:VS

- Life sucks and so do you.
~ Lil J.

On a less emo notes

February 14th, 2010 by Lil J

I haven’t been updating my own blog. Bad James.

Well I got into Graph Jam again. YAY. Yes it is a big deal for me, shut up.

There. You better like it. Or die.

Cyaz.

“Is there anybody out there who
is lost and hurt and lonely too?”

– Coldplay.

- Life sucks and so do you.
~ Lil J.

Fucks sake.

December 15th, 2009 by Lil J

I complain about the same fucking shit.

Because I have to deal with the same fucking shit.

Over.

And over.

Again.

I’m gonna go to bed and hope I don’t wake up.

Cyaz.

“CRUSH.
The industry.
NO.
Security.”

– Dethklok

- Life sucks and so do you.
~ Lil J.

The Best Friend Label.

December 7th, 2009 by Lil J

It sucks. It sucks balls.

“Endlessly lost and still searching for something.”
– Shape of Despair

- Life sucks and so do you.
~ Lil J.

I DID IT.

November 29th, 2009 by Lil J

I honestly cannot believe that I did it, my GRAPH made it to the homepage of Graph Jam!

Now your all (all meaning who ever the hell reads this) wondering what the hell is the big deal and what it should mean to you. Well, the answer is absolutely nothing. So if you don’t care you can SHOVE OFF. This is a big deal for me :)

Anywho, the reason this is big to me is because the graph has been seen by millions of people, over 1300 of them voted giving it a rating of 4.5 out of 5 stars and hundreds of people have commented on it.

my graph

A link to all the commens and stuff is HERE. Yeah thats pretty much it. My big success.

Cyaz.

“Vanquish the pain, don’t want to see it fail.
Faith divides us death unites us.
Vanquish the pain, don’t want to seek despair
Faith divides us death unites us.”

– Paradise Lost

- Life sucks and so do you.
~ Lil J.

Graveworm

November 28th, 2009 by Lil J

I’ve noticed a lot of my posts are all about music, under appreciated music and music that shouldn’t be appreciated at all. But hey, I guess thats all just my opinion. And I tend to go on about it because music is my life and all I really have. If I suddenly went deaf… well, my life would be pointless.

A band that stands out in my large collection of music is “Graveworm.” A band from Italy that formed in 1992, same year I was born. They started out playing a form of Symphonic Black Metal with melodic riffs, now evolving into a Melodic/Symphonic Death/Black group. I found these guys when I found what I thought was a Iron Maiden cover done by Kalmah, the song Fear of the Dark, which actually turned out to be done by Graveworm. Finding it to be one hell of a good cover, I went on to look for more of their music and found “Abandoned By Heaven” and was instantly hooked. I just truly cannot describe how amazing this band is. It isn’t like some regular Black or Death metal band that sing about gore and war, more of songs about heart break or longing. This is the only band I would describe as “Brutal and Beautiful.” So if anyone reads this crap and enjoys heavy yet symphonic metal, you have to get some songs now. Seriously.

These are my suggestions here:

– Abandoned By Heaven
– Which Way
– Nocturnal Hymns
– Behind The Curtain Of Darkness
– A Dreaming Beauty

And also check out the Iron Maiden cover, Fear of the Dark, it really does justice to the original.

Cyaz fellas.

“I want escape, I wanna fly,
I wanna breathe, I wanna cry.
I’d kill myself, therefore and so,
I wanna know where I should go.”

– Graveworm

- Life sucks and so do you.
~ Lil J.

Metal vs Rap

November 26th, 2009 by Lil J

Just a quick thought here.

Metal and Rap were born into mainstream culture around the same time, 1979, and over that period of time, Metal evolved, bands rose and experimented new sounds creating thousands of new genres. We started off with Heavy Metal, we now have genres like Thrash Metal, Death Metal, Black Metal, Doom Metal, Folk Metal, Symphonic Metal, Progressive Metal and Industrial Metal. Other bands drew inspiration from these genres, mixing them around and producing their owns sounds, creating genres such as Grindcore, Melodic Death Metal and Metalcore. Now mixing up all these genres, bands can create something completely original by changing the tunes, tempo and vocal style to make something like Melodic death doom, brutal death black or symphonic doom folk.

So your all probably wondering why I’m babbling on about these different genres, but Metal can have such an original sound while Rap has sounded exactly the same for the last 30 years.

But why is Rap the only acceptable genre in mainstream society and stuffs?

What the fuck.

Do I know what I’m on about? No, no I do not. But I’m pretty sure I raised some form of a valid argument.

“New moon, would you open the gates,
and take me away from this night.
New moon, between the curtains,
walk me away on your silvery bridge.
New moon, lay your mercy on me tonight.”

– Swallow the Sun

- Life sucks and so do you.
~ Lil J.

Where the Wild Things Are

November 25th, 2009 by Lil J

No I have no shame.

When you were a kid, do you remember making your parents read you the same book over and over again? Well Where the Wild Things Are was that book for me. And now that its being turned into a film, I’m actually really excited to see it. Not only is it a movie of one of my most favorite children’s books, it looks visually beautiful and inspiring.

Don’t judge me. I never grew up.

Besides, no need to be jealous, after all.

Theres a wild thing inside us all.

PS: Wake Up by Arcade Fire is the song for the trailer of the movie, and really is a beautiful song. Cyaz.

“Children don’t grow up,
our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.”

- Arcade Fire

- Theres a wild thing inside all of us.
~ Lil J.

Working hard or hardly working?

November 14th, 2009 by Lil J

Fuck you.

I’ve been working hard.

Seriously though, I’ve pretty much become the Graphics Designer of a private server for a mate and I’ve been spewing out creations. Dunno why I’m putting them here, I guess I just really like them.

This ones big so I’m chucking it in a link HERE

The rest down here are all loading screens…

Btw they’re all loading how long it takes for you to stop failing.

That may take a while.

“But it hurts to be alive my friend.
In this silent tide we’re driftwood passing by.”

– Kamelot

- Life sucks and so do you.
~ Lil J.

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